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...pure life...

I have learnt

we should love life as it is.. without expecting much from it.. only when we don't expect much from it can we have lots of surprises..

we should always cherish our loved ones and be grateful for the slightest sacrifices that they made for us.. so that even if tomolo is the end of the world, we wouldn't have any regrets...

that life is like a roller coaster..although roller coaster scares the wits out of us, ppl still enjoy it at the end of the ride.. it is the ups and downs that made life interesting, meaningful, colourful..

Monday, October 31, 2005

I can take 4 sub!! I do not need to give up LEP! Hooray!! haaz.. really happy.. my vice-principal, Mrs Lim gave her approval to my promotion and I can maintain my 4 subjects.. today is really a wan mei de yi tian again although I had to be kept in the suspense until 5 plus.. haaz
went kbox with jes, constance, ming xiu and siu lun today.. sang quite a number of songs..haaz.. after that went to meet lingshan in TM.. then after that went back to school to see the vp.. Mrs Lim is real nice.. saw Mingda in the General Office.. he in the same Civics group as me.. and we both also on MC during Promos..
that's how my day went today.. really happy.. what to sey neh.. I cherish the chance to take 4 sub.. and will work hard de.. Jiayou!

7:39 PM

Friday, October 28, 2005

ok, let me relaz for 2 more days.. from Mon onwards, I am going to start on my revision.. and when I say start, I mean it.. : )
I can't help being affected abt dropping LEP.. I kept trying to convince myself that dropping it is the best decision in this type of situation.. but it doesn't help.. I guess I have to give myself some time b4 I can get over it.. well, life is tough, but I am tougher.. (",)
went cha guan today.. this is my first and last LEP outing.. haaz.. ironic.. my LEP teacher also let me sleep in class today.. cos I am dropping le.. I tried my best to stay awke but I am really too tired..so cannot.. I am so sorry..
Miss Khairani asked me to check out whether sci faculty really requires 2 sciences to enter.. cos she says it is no point taking subjects that we cannot score.. and she says Chi should be my strong sub.. well, it is always safer to be taking double sciences.. I hope my decision is right after all..
Wang zi bian qing wa is really nice.. will buy the VCD if I have the $$.. muahaaz.. the episode is really sweet today lah.. haaz.. thumbs up!!

9:28 PM

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Tomorrow will be my last day taking LEP.. after that, I can really bid it goodbye.. it really saddens me to think that I have to give it up after a year.. I really don't like the feeling of giving something up half way.. is this really the right decision? Will it really be better for me to be taking 3 sub? I dunno.. let time prove it ba..
signed up for singnet broadband just now.. will be getting a ipod nano soon.. yeah! haaz..
this year sure hasn't been smooth-sailing.. but luckily everything turns out fine right at the end.. wow.. and I have certainly gained a lot from it.. I should say this year is an eventful and a fruitful one.. honestly, dropping of LEP had hurt me deeply.. I feel that once I had taken up a sub, it is my responsibility to do it well.. I had not done so for my 4 sub and now.. I have to give up LEP.. it just saddens me to give it up just like that.. what makes me regret is that I should have tried the LEP and Chem papers.. maybe I can get an A pass for either one or both of them.. this way, I can maintain 4 sub.. It is because I have not done the papers that I am reluctant to admit defeat just like that.. how can I just rely on subject tutors' comments juz like that? Do they really understand me? Do they know how I think? I am so unwilling to admit defeat.. really.. but what else can I do? I can only follow their advice if I want to be promoted.. haiz..
that's y.. I have decided.. I am going to work hard and get 3 A's.. I am determined not to commit the same mistake again.

10:57 PM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Today is a eventful day.. something big happened.. I have decided to drop LEP.. Chinese will not be a part of my life from next year onwards.. Sadly, I have to bid goodbye to it.. Chinese will finally leave me after 11 years of education.. wow..
Of cos, if given a choice, I wouldn't drop it.. but my Promos results doesn't even allow promotion.. not to mention maintain 4 sub.. so just forget it huh..
Honestly, I am pretty confident I can cope with 4 sub.. but it is going to be a long and tedious journey.. so.. it all goes down to whether I am willing to do it.. I am not sure whether I can do it.. 3 sub seems attractive.. at least I feel more confident..
Xu Si Wei Lao Shi is right after all.. I have to decide the course that I want to take in university now.. If science faculty is the answer, then give up LEP may be a good choice.. after all, LEP is no use to a science faculty..
yup..so it is all decided then.. tomolo will be the day to hand in appeal forms or to inform the school about the dropping of subjects.. LEP, sorry I have to let you go..

10:12 PM

Monday, October 24, 2005

I was happy today.. cos everything went well for PW presentation today.. Mrs Lofthouse even praised me for being conversational!! I didn't expect that.. but that really brighten up my day.. haaz.. my script was done last night lah.. burn oil until 12am midnight.. haaz.. and Eunice approved my script.. at least she said the content was ok..haaz.. but I know my script needs lengthening.. at bit short.. so I need to improve on it..: )

4:35 PM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

I am jobless.. the translater work didn't work out.. what they want is not a translater but a spokeperson instead.. gosh.. haiz.. have to go job hunting again..
nvm.. will take my own sweet time since I think I should do some self evaluation of myself during the hols instead of working.. results are so bad.. it is time to ask myself why it is so.. I am not going to hide from it anymore.. Ignorance does not help..
Btw, Yanzi's new album is really nice.. I recommend 'Liu Lang Di Tu".. very k-ge.. haaz.. wan mei de yi tian is very yanzi style.. how do u say it? is like this type of songs only Yanzi will sing.. lolz.. didn't think much of this song at first until I saw Yanzi's interview on I-Weekly.. she mentioned that the song actually exposes reality.. the lyrics talked abt having a big house and all that.. this may be the wish of many adults.. and in reality, they work to earn money in order to fulfil this dream..
wan mei de yi tian.. what is your idea of a perfect day? I had my perfect day recently.. It was the first day back to school after the dengue incident.. That is really a perfect day.. seeing my gang of friends and be back with them again.. I was so grateful then for everything in my life.. Even though we got back papers that day, it still didn't spoil my day.. haaz..
To me, a perfect day should be a normal day ba.. it must comprises of both school and home.. preferably a moderate day in school till 3pm? After that go home and watch my TV.. just nice.. haaz.. ya, my perfect day must be stressless as well.. like the days I am leading now.. haaz..

4:26 PM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

got back my papers.. I am worried about not being able to be promoted. I got only 39.5 for GP.. I hope I will pass after moderation.. if not, there will be a retest waiting for me.. maths isn't wonderful at all.. 34.. bio is ok.. but I missed out a 4 mark question which I could have known how to do.. I just missed it.. dunno how I managed to do that.. 44.5.. as for the rest, it is sub tutors' comments.. ya.. that's around it..
Just got a translator job.. for Singapore Environment Council.. 5 dollars an hour.. and may get to be interviewed by media.. wow.. haaz.. critera: must be fluent in Chinese..haaz..

7:10 PM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

changed my blogskin.. nice rite? I am very satisfied with it.. keez..
have been staying at home these few days.. will be going library with Ying tomolo.. we can expect a good chat again.. haaz..
realised that my life changed quite significantly lately, after my discharge.. on the surface, it seems that I have returned to the normal life but actually I know I am not.. the me now learnt to be thankful for all the things I have now.. what matters to me in the past may not now.. it is simply like a caterpillar coming up of the cocoon, emerging as a butterfly.. I feel like I have been given a new lease of life.. gosh.. everything is so miraculous....

11:10 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

A scene at Mac today.. I was studying and 3 P6 gals sat at the table beside me. They came with the same purpose.. to study.. they got stacks of test papers with them..haaz.. nowadays P6 students also so hardworking.. xiang dang nian.. I was there enjoying myself.. studies was never one of my worries.. haaz.. the 3 gals chatted as they do their work.. a bit noisy.. I looked up.. then accidentally met the eyes of one of the gals.. I think I look fierce.. cos the girl immediately ask her friends to lower their volume.. but they didn't.. then dunno y..suddenly they made a call to another friend.. and the 3 gals started shouting into the phone.. quarelling with the person on the other end I think.. gosh.. their voice volume was so loud that I can even hear them clearly with my MP3 player on.. everyone was practically looking in their direction but they don't seem to notice.. haaz.. obviously they are not scared of throwing face..and of cos.. the conversation with that friend of theirs was a childish one.. what 'why u badmouth me behind my back? Don't think I don't know.. Who who who told me about it le.." then the person on the other line threatened to complain to her mother.. lolz.. then one of the 3 gals threatened back.. ' can u don't be so timid? threatening me to go to your mother.. don't think I dun noe.. u always badmouth me in front of your mother.. your mom thought I am a very scheming and cunning person.. so what if u go and complain to her, I wouldn't care if she comes and scold me.. I will surely scold her back.. who do she think she is? so dua pai meh?" wow.... little gals nowdays are impressive, I would say.. in our days.. maybe I am really timid.. I am really fearful of my friends' parents looking me up.. luckily no matter who I offended then.. their parents didn't come and scold me.. haaz..
Reflecting on this incident.. I find it amusing.. don't you find them a bit naive? They confronted the person on the phone.. a waste of phone bill I would say..luckily the person they spoke to is someone their age.. if it was someone older, more experienced, the story won't be the same.. haaz.. and since they are so young, they wouldn't care to be embarrassed.. shouting into the phone.. and let everyone know what they are talking about.. maybe this is what being young is about.. u can ignore ppl's opinion and dui as much lian as u want.. haaz..perharps it is really a fact that we are old.. if u ask me to quarrel over the phone in front of a crowd of people.. haaz.. I would find it so dui lian and childish thing to do.. and I feel like in a real world if someone really harbours bad intentions, it wouldn't do any good to confront him/her either..haaz..
However, I still pei fu that courage and that naiveness.. it is something that we lost in the process of growing up.. as we become more aware of how things work in real life..we become more self conscious..haaz.. at the end of the day, the 3 cute gals spent much of their time quarrelling and chatting that they did not spend much time on their work.. haaz..

3:07 AM